Hill of Beans

I love this weather. Everytime it rains I instantly want to go home light the candles, get a big blanket, curl up on the couch and watch black and white movies all day long. there couldn't be a better way to spend my free time.
Why at the end of Casablanca does Ilsa get on that plane? i just can't figure it out. People say that the best love stories deal with sacrifice.... but that doesn't offer us the "happily ever after" ending we all dream of. But i guess that's why it's one of the best movies of all time. It leaves you wanting more. Plus there is the hope for the younger couple still. So the death of one relationship makes room for a new one.
So i find myself closing another chapter in my life only to begin fresh. Now my options are limitless (or so i'd like to imagine). I'm pretty sure that moving will be unavoidable. I'd like to stay in Edmond but i've been here for 3 years. So i'm giving myself a deadline of Christmas to decide. School's out and "real" life is in. maybe all finally join the peace corp like i've always wanted, or move to Alabama to be closer to good ol' Sid and Childhaven, or Maybe i'll hitch a ride with Stephanie to California where we'll surf all day and open her own daycare. ;) or maybe, just maybe i'll move back to D-town.
who knows this feeling could pass, until then...
"But I've got a job to do, too. Where I'm going, you can't follow. What I've got to do, you can't be any part of. Ilsa, I'm no good at being noble, but it doesn't take much to see that the problems of three little people don't amount to a hill of beans in this crazy world. Someday you'll understand that. Now, now... Here's looking at you kid.