Claim to Fame

hahaha so i always make fun of people on the news and i think they always pick the most stupid people to interview. we'll i've now joined that club.30 min. ago while typing away at my desk, my boss says people are filming down stairs. so what do Cristin, Shea, and I do??? that's right run down stairs as fast as we can! In the parking lot we see a camera crew and a really tall handsome cowboy, but we can't see exactly who it is. So we're standing inside the building; Cristin with her face pressed to the glass, Shea with the classic "hand sheilding her eyes" glance, and me jumping up and down to get a better view. While debating who he could be we notice he is walking toward us. no....strutting towards us. he gets closer. "he's not coming over here?" "no, he's not coming over here." oh crap.... "he's coming over here!" where are we going to go? it's obvious that we've been staring at him for a good 5 minutes AND we're standing behind the glass doors with no where to go. He is still walking towards us.... closer closer He waves us out. so we walk out and it's BLAKE SHELTON!!!! he greats us; tells us all how pretty we look and how he saw us from across the parking lot. (what a charmer... with photoshop eyes, so blue) As i reach for his hand i notice his fly is undone.... what do i do? do i tell him? nah... "i'm Amanda, you're fly is unzipped" sounds a little to friendly so i just went with "i'm Amanda". He was shooting for NBC's show Clash of the Choirs. Cristin and i sang two christmas carols with him. And although he was extremely handsome when he started carressing my face i felt uber uncomfortable. But it was nice to hear him sing.Shea ran inside to get Jennifer and she came out and sang a solo. Boogie Woogie Bugle Boy ... and the three of us served as background dancers. lol It was fun we talked a little bit longer then signed release forms. Went back up stairs and were very unproductive for the next 20 minutes. After making fun of his flying being down and talking about how "i wish i had/hadn't" or losing jewelry in clevage areas... someone runs by and says that we need to go downstairs to the canal. Where at least 10 AAI co-workers and other various celeb wannabe's jumped in the canal boat and sang along with Blake Shelton to the tune of Jingle Bells all while camera's rolled. The Show airs Dec. 17,18, & 19!!! on NBC (channel 4 in the Oklahoma City area) http://www.nbc.com/Clash_of_the_Choirs/ so check us out. there is no telling what will be cut out or aired and you know how i just ramble when i get nervous! hahahahahai almost broke out the Robot dance... but had a moment of clarity. Thank the good Lord! i took a few pictures with my phone so maybe i'll get to post those soon.and to think i got paid for my 15 minutes of fame.**** let me clarify i'm not part of the Choir, i just sang a few songs with him, but on tv none the less****

My Heart knows me better than i know myself, so i'm going to let it do all the talking

This weekend I had the chance to visit with an old friend, who over the years I've been really close with, and he said something that I thought at the time I knew the answer to but it wasn't until today that I truly discovered its meaning.He said that he had spent the last few years finding out who he is. We talked about ways we had both changed over the years. It was good to catch up and re-kindle a friendship from the past.I've had a whirlwind of a week, but today as I was driving to work- it hit me. I finally felt happy with myself. For the first time in my life I felt like I was in the right spot and on the right track. haha it was "like lightning struck my brian". I almost always carry around a small amount of uncertainty about the choices I've made whether it's school, work, or relationships, but NOT TODAY.I can see where God has placed me and I'm starting to get a glimpse of why. Life changes and I'm going to make mistakes but its okay because nothing is permanent. Love DOES conquer all (thanks Ashley & Regina).This week was my wake up call. Putting yourself out there is one of the scariest places to be and rejection is a big obstacle for me. But I've lived through it, not that it doesn't hurt (tremendously). Try- for heavens sake I beg you. Take a chance, do something you've always wanted to do. For me I feel that I've been called to get involved in my community. For you it may be as simple as letting people into your life: a friend, family member, or stranger. All I know is that I've wasted too much time being selfish. So get involved- love, forgive, grow, live, & most importantly RISK!

In the Meadow we Can Build a Snowman

There are certain things that I have believed to be truths well at least until recently...· A flashing "walk" sign grants you unwavering immunity from any harm that could come while crossing the street· No flag should/or could be raised higher than that of the American flag· Hot chocolate is better with those little marshmallows in itBut I have recently discovered that these said truths don't hold up. Despite my idea of the world being lollipops and gum drops there are bad drivers out there who at times try to run red lights. We also know, as shocking and sad as it is that Texas feels that they have some right to fly their flag higher than that of the one that signifies the unity of our country. And although we love those tiny marshmallows that come in the hot cocoa mix it's only a matter of seconds before they dissolve and you hardly notice that they were there in the first place.**But having good friends never changes. I'm so thankful for the friends I have in my life, old and new. I'm glad that I have friends who will gather around the glow of the jack-o-lantern in my tiny house and listen to Christmas music.Sweet tangerines to all and to all a good night!

A Beautiful Sight I'm Happy Tonight

There are certain things that I have believed to be truths... well at least until recently:• A flashing “walk” sign grants you unwavering immunity from any harm that could come while crossing the street• No flag should/or could be raised higher than that of the American flag• Hot chocolate is better with those little marshmallows in itBut I have recently discovered that these said truths don’t hold up. Despite my idea of the world being lollipops and gum drops there are bad drivers out there who at times try to run red lights, we also know, as shocking and sad as it is that Texas feels that they have some right to fly their flag higher than that of the one that signifies the unity of our country. And although we love those tiny marshmallows that come in the hot cocoa mix it’s only a matter of seconds before they dissolve and you hardly notice that they were there in the first place.**But having good friends never changes. I’m so thankful for the friends I have in my life, old and new. I’m glad that I have friends who will gather around the glow of the jack-o-lantern in my tiny house and listen to Christmas music. Sweet tangerines to all and to all a good night!

A Beautiful Sight I'm Happy Tonight

There are certain things that I have believed to be truths... well at least until recently:• A flashing “walk” sign grants you unwavering immunity from any harm that could come while crossing the street• No flag should/or could be raised higher than that of the American flag• Hot chocolate is better with those little marshmallows in itBut I have recently discovered that these said truths don’t hold up. Despite my idea of the world being lollipops and gum drops there are bad drivers out there who at times try to run red lights, we also know, as shocking and sad as it is that Texas feels that they have some right to fly their flag higher than that of the one that signifies the unity of our country. And although we love those tiny marshmallows that come in the hot cocoa mix it’s only a matter of seconds before they dissolve and you hardly notice that they were there in the first place.**But having good friends never changes. I’m so thankful for the friends I have in my life, old and new. I’m glad that I have friends who will gather around the glow of the jack-o-lantern in my tiny house and listen to Christmas music. Sweet tangerines to all and to all a good night!

There is Nothing you can Sing that can't be Sung

I'm usually a sucker for the limelight tbut this past week a few things have been noticed that i did not necessarily intend to be seen.While using the restroom at work a co-worker notices my tattoo on my foot and starts engaging me in conversation (while noting the tattoo) ..... i'm not exactly a bathroom talker if you know what i mean ....ladies. Secondly, another co-worker catches me looking at a map in the hall way and asks "why are you looking at Virginia all longingly?" i blushed and quickly left the map and returned to my desk.It can also be annoying when family calls you out on things that are painfully obvious... like the fact that i've been a baby throwing myself a pitty party. thanks mom. i know things have been tough but i've been letting the pressure spill over on to others and that's not fair.

Maps, Maps, Maps

there’s nothing you can sing that can’t be sung I'm usually a sucker for the limelight tbut this past week a few things have been noticed that i did not necessarily intend to be seen.While using the restroom at work a co-worker notices my tattoo on my foot and starts engaging me in conversation (while noting the tattoo) ..... i'm not exactly a bathroom talker if you know what i mean ....ladies. Secondly, another co-worker catches me looking at a map in the hall way and asks "why are you looking at Virginia all longingly?" i blushed and quickly left the map and returned to my desk. It can also be annoying when family calls you out on things that are painfully obvious... like the fact that i've been a baby throwing myself a pitty party. thanks mom. i know things have been tough but i've been letting the pressure spill over on to others and that's not fair.

Hill of Beans

I love this weather. Everytime it rains I instantly want to go home light the candles, get a big blanket, curl up on the couch and watch black and white movies all day long. there couldn't be a better way to spend my free time.
Why at the end of Casablanca does Ilsa get on that plane? i just can't figure it out. People say that the best love stories deal with sacrifice.... but that doesn't offer us the "happily ever after" ending we all dream of. But i guess that's why it's one of the best movies of all time. It leaves you wanting more. Plus there is the hope for the younger couple still. So the death of one relationship makes room for a new one.
So i find myself closing another chapter in my life only to begin fresh. Now my options are limitless (or so i'd like to imagine). I'm pretty sure that moving will be unavoidable. I'd like to stay in Edmond but i've been here for 3 years. So i'm giving myself a deadline of Christmas to decide. School's out and "real" life is in. maybe all finally join the peace corp like i've always wanted, or move to Alabama to be closer to good ol' Sid and Childhaven, or Maybe i'll hitch a ride with Stephanie to California where we'll surf all day and open her own daycare. ;) or maybe, just maybe i'll move back to D-town.
who knows this feeling could pass, until then...
"But I've got a job to do, too. Where I'm going, you can't follow. What I've got to do, you can't be any part of. Ilsa, I'm no good at being noble, but it doesn't take much to see that the problems of three little people don't amount to a hill of beans in this crazy world. Someday you'll understand that. Now, now... Here's looking at you kid.